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I do jealous of her. I know i shouldn't be.
But how can't i????
She do the awesome things,well i am not.
Get a lot of appreciation, a lot of praises.
It hurts if someone compare me with her.
and of course i know she doesn't realize that i've been hurt sometimes.
In one side i am so proud of her,but in the other side i was fed up.
Fed up at myself or at her?haha don't know.

I've heard that Jealously is a sign of insecurity,a sign of weakness and a sign of obsession.
so am i including of the definition 'jealously'?